Sunday, May 1, 2011
Ponderings....
Sometimes I wonder....if the person I'm always fighting, is actually the person I naturally am. I wonder if the expectations I have for myself are realistic and necessary. I mean...if I'm going to be honest I will say that I have been sucked into everything I don't believe in. And at the same time, I have little desire to fight it anymore, I have little fight left to battle the rebellion inside of me that wants to just destroy my life and forget about it. And I know this is supposed to be a natural process in growing up....But for me it's kind of like watching a movie...seeing myself do everything I fight, and as I do all of these things, forgetting where I am or what I'm doing....I'm reacting and telling myself, " What in the world are you doing?"....but still going farther....telling myself more is better.
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We all feel this way, even the Apostle Paul.
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way too... fighting with myself and just wanting to give up and give in...
but this passage helps to lift me up, and reminds me that God and Jesus are always there to rescue me.
Roman 7
We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature[d] a slave to the law of sin.
THANKS BE TO GOD, WHO DELIVERS ME THROUGH JESUS CHRIST OUR LORD!
I love this verse. I completely forgot about it until now.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I remember this verse because I heard it in a sermon at my church when I went home for spring break. It was deliver by this Mexican Seminar Student, whom I haven't seen or meet before. But he comes to my church very often now, to help with the youths.
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